6-11-04 Toningt I'm all by myself, good, good heaven!!!!!!!!!!!! Can watch tv, tend on no man's business
(Shakespeare) and live my life the way I want to. Well, for one evening then. I'm finally going to see the Matrix! I don't
think I will like it very much, but I wanna know what it's about. I still don't get it, so this is my chance!!!!!!!
Sarah told me yesterday what Americans think of us Dutch people. She said you think we smoke marijuana and
that we're drunk all the time. Before she came to Holland, (she's an exchange student from Vermont) she thought that people
in Denmark spoke Dutch. How bad is that??!! According to her, everybody there thinks that, or doesn't know that Holland excists
or where it is on the map!!! God, Shame on you!!
18-11-04 Tomorrow I'm freed of the first four hours of my schooldrama, wow!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sinterklaas is a tradition in Holland, something like Christmas, but then with Sinterklaas in stead of Santa.
We celebrate it 5 december.
9-12-2004 I really had a nice week. It just went so fast! I had lots of fun with friends, even though my
testweek is coming up and I have loads of work to do. I have to learn so much! But you know what? I really don't mind at all.
I think it's worth all the time and in the end, it's profitable. You can get a lot of satisfaction out of it. You must think
now I'm a total nerd, and you know what? FUCK YOU!!!!!! Finally, I love my life the way it is. I'm not searching for sth.
better, nor for a perfect life. I'm fine with the idea that I'm still here and yett alive. The only thing I really
have to remember is that words don't hurt you. People can say whatever they want but don't let them get you down. Don't think
that THEIR opinion has any influence on YOUR life. They don't care if they hurt you or not, you do. So why would you
let them? Don't give them that satisfaction, coz, they're really not worth it. And so I end my lecture & sleepless
nights, for they have lasted too long. Adieu.
28-12-04 Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow!!!!!!! Hoeraaa!!!! Even though it isn't Christmas, I'm still
enjoying the white world. Have nothing to say today. I'm very tired 'cause I had to get up very early this morning.
Consulted the GP.... Wasn't very keen on that one.... So, at the moment I'm sitting here, in a warm and comforting place.
Looking outside and seeing the snow falling down, I'm remembering all the funny great, laughable things my sister and I used
to do when we were little. Making beautiful icesculptures(well, we usually didn't get any furter than a big heap of snow,
but never mind) We had fun. That's all for today. Am going to watch s.a.t.c. now. For those who are not familiar with this
shortcut: google it.
New York Diary
4-02-05 Still at school now... I'm so excited, finally I'm going to da big apple, the city that never sleeps.
Though I will be a real tourist there, considering the fact that the whole family is going. But I will NEVER complain. I like
to consider this trip as a prologue (to a next one???). I'm going mad by now, time is moving slowly.....
21-03-05 Good Morning! I'm back for almost a month now, and I never wrote in this NYdiary... Sorry.. But
then again, nobody has visited this page ever so to who am I talking to? Just to give the last bit of honour left to this
diary, I would like to tell 'you all' that I've had a great time. I was really impressed by the height of all the buildings.
I've never seen something like that before. Hurreh! Still enjoying it... When I think of the City that never sleeps, I can't
sleep. I don't think I wanna live there forever, but a long, long, long vacation would be more than welcome. I want to go
back there before I turn 18. That's my wish. I'm not longing for a playstation or the smallest cellphone in the
world anymore, I want to go there!!!!!! Bye bye, little uns.
Good morning!
22-03-05 Yesterday I ordered a big poster of New York. Of Manhattan, actually. It's a black-and-white picture
of Manhatten, and it says Manhattan Morning. It's sort of a tribute, my way of honouring Manhattan. I'd love to show all the
people in town, in fact, all the people in the world, that I've been in New York and fell in love with it. I'm dreaming, still
dreaming, of a possible second journey. Lets call it: Me in New York: The sequel.
24-03-05 Hello again! How are you today? Still at school, but it doesn't really matter. I'm very 'goedgemutst
' today. Today I just wondered: does everybody pretend to be somebody they are not? Are we all playing games, and are we aware
of this? Or are we making up things without even noticing it. If that's true, we live in a society based on a big lie. Now
I just wonder, and think, that if this is true, and life is just a big lie, nothing's real. Because if there is
nothing but lies, truth doesn't exist. And a lie can't be a lie without truth. So actually, it would be good to
live in a society without truth, because then mankind wouldn't even know what lying was. There would be no crime, no cheating
husbands, no cheating of any kind. Wouldn't it be better then, if we just started lying thousands of years ago, when we didn't
know. Maybe, we wouldn't be like this right now....
30-03-05 Today I had a thought. Are we here for a reason? Why are we standing on this huge world?
I saw a quiz on the telly a few days ago. There was a question about politics. I don't remember the
question entirely, but the point was that a political party used the phrase 'Together for the Future' some years ago. It just
hit my mind: Are we making progress at all? Nothing has really changed ... Some laws have been adjusted, some rules have been
made, but in the end, terrorism is here, people are dying and this IS the future. I guess we're still waiting for the future
to come, not realising that people were probably waiting for the future to come two thousand years ago. We still haven't moved
on. We're all alone, we never achieve anything. We just live. What is the purpose? Why are we here? Why was I brought
to the earth? Was it because I could make a difference, heal cancer, destroy AIDS and rescue the environment? Or
was it just because my parents were, just as I am doing now, living their life, and wanted to have fun together?
16-04-05 I'm so bored right now.......... Bleehhhh! My sister is eating hot rice right now. We have
testweek coming up. I'm so bored.. I've learned everything, and my dad's going to help me with the history of China.
08-09-05 Lis is in Londen. Dad's back from Londen. Mom can't stop talking about Londen. I'm stuck at school.
Hmm... Don't mind, really.. Listening to Jack Johnson, sun shining outside, I figure life just won't get much better. It's
like Jack Nicholson said: 'What if this is as good as it gets?' Better start enjoying it then. This is something that I can't
do, 'cause I'm already enjoying.
Today I have got nothing to say, nothing to complain about, nothing to think about, nothing to write about.
Life is as good as it gets, whaha ;) It's just 'going with the flow'...
Going to Londen in 1,5 week. Looking forward to that. I'm going to stop now, 'cause I really have no
inspiration left at all, and I don't want to bother my few readers with that. Ciao!!
